Hey Guys, I Need Advice

Hi Lovelies, there isn’t anyone in my life that I can talk about this with so I’m sorry, but I’m going to rant it our to you guys and maybe writing it out will be enough for me to work it through, but if you have advice or a suggestion please, feel free.

I hate university. Not the class content, that’s interesting, but I don’t know anyone. There are three girls from my high school that I see rarely. My lectures have more people in them then I had in my graduating class. Never in my life have I had trouble making friends, I’m a chatty person and I like meeting new people but I’ve been here three weeks and it like hitting my head against a wall. No one seems to like me or want to be friends and if I do find someone I can hold a conversation with the next day they are lost in the sea of people. There was a guy I had been texting all summer who is in one of my classes and when we met we arranged to go out for drinks. He cancelled on me 30 minutes before we were supposed to meet up leaving me alone in part of the city I didn’t know, with no vehicle and a dead cell phone. Discouraging isn’t a strong enough word for when someone likes you but as soon as they meet you in person they seem to instantly become disinterested. I know this doesn’t sound great becasue so many people don’t get to go to university, but the thought of sitting for hours between classes by myself makes me cry.

One of my highschool friends convinced me to go to a sorority recruitment meeting (yes, they apparently exist in Canada too, but much less elaborate then in the States, there are about 20 girls in both groups) and I expected stereotypical movie mean girls but they are so friendly and welcoming I instantly fell in love with a bunch of them in both groups and I think I could make some really good friends. But its $750 first year and $400 for each of the following years you are apart of it. That’s a lot of money no matter who you are, but especially for a student. They did break it down as to what everything’s for and if you join any other campus club even though the start up fee is $10, you have to pay for all your activities (ie: ski club: hotel rooms, passes, rentals, busses etc.) and this includes every activities and trips they do, it still is A LOT of money. It doesn’t help that my mom is completely and utterly anti-sorority. It not that I want her to pay or anything, if I do decide to do it I’ll work for it myself, it’s just I really need someone to talk this through with and not instantly say “your buying friends.” I don’t see it like that but sure, fine, I’m buying friends. That how everyone else sees it. At this point paying for the opportunity to spend time with the only people I have met on this damn campus who actually seem friendly doesn’t even sound like a bad thing.  And then throw in actual school work and a part-time job.

I don’t know guys, all I know is I’m somehow sleeping too much and too little at the same time and I almost constantly feel ready to start crying and just feel like I’ve made a huge mistake. As weird as it sounds, I think it would almost be better to have moved across the country and be living away from home is residence, at least then I would have opportunity to meet people in my building.

Liebster Award

Liebster award

Hi Everyone, Jocelyn of  52 Letters in the Alphabet Nominated me for this award a couple weeks ago, Thank you so much and I’m so sorry it took so long! I’m onto round 5 of doing this and I’m pretty well tapped out of people I can nominate!

Jocelyn’s Questions:

1. Can you read in loud places or only when it is quiet? I have 2 brothers and a dog, my house was never quiet when I was younger so I can do either. I like listening to music while I read too,  which I know some people find really annoying.

2. Do you prefer to read stand alone books or series? I really enjoy series because you get to see more of the world and the characters.

3. Who is your favorite author and why? Cassandra Clare! She never leaves me wondering if she’s ever going to write another book! The most frustrating this is when you are reading a series and the author just suddenly drops off the face of the planet in the middle. It’s happened! Carnival of Souls Sequel, Melissa Meyer, I’m waiting!

4. Do you organize your bookshelves in any particular way? By height then alphabetically within height. I know it’s weird! I like my books all being even!

5. What fictional character would you date? William Herondale. #1 fictional boyfriend forever.

6. What is book that has made you angry (for any reason)? The Chrysalids. Can I light this thing on fire? What is that ending?

7. What genre do you never read? Non-fiction.

8. What is the best book you’ve read this year? The Darkest Minds series by Alexandra Bracken is pretty high up there, I don’t know about best.

9. Do you prefer paperbacks, hardcovers, or e-books? Hardcovers! Paperbacks annoy me becasue they fall over and get wrinkled and bend and wear is you ever take them of the shelf.

10. What is one book you wish everyone would read? Rose Under Fire by Elizabeth Wein should be mandatory reading in highschool.

11. What book has influenced your life the most? There have been a lotHarry Potter was/is a huge influence on me becasue I grew up with it, The Infernal Devices Series by Cassandra Clare really made me rethink my relationships with people (romantic and otherwise) and how we interact with each other and the effects we have on one another as well as how I react to events. Divergent by Veronica Roth, the first one in particular, very much so contributed to how I view my thoughts and actions. The Help and other historical-fictions like Elizabeth Wein’s works and The Book Thief made me think about my place in society and if I had been around during these time periods where would I have fallen?

That is all, another huge thank-you to Jocelyn!

Opposites Book Tag

Hey everyone! This has been awhile coming, I just got really busy with university. I first saw this tag when Tanya of Read. Run. Study. did it, I’ll leave the link for her over HERE so you can go check her out, and it looked like a lot of fun so I have decided to attempt it!

1. First book in your collection & the last book you bought

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The Music of Dolphins by Karen Hesse is one of the first books that I recall personally buying when I was in grade…3? I have older books in my house but either I didn’t buy them they were given to me or they aren’t mine (ie: all the Harry Potter’s are my older brother’s).

City of Heavenly Fire by Cassandra Clare finally shipped to me a few days ago even though I purchased it back whenever, but I’m going to go with that one!

2. A cheap book & an expensive book

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My copy of Specials by Scott Westerfeld was in the free book give away bin at my school library so that would be the cheapest.

And Stardust by Neil Gaiman is one of my more expensive books at ~$25. Worth it, it’s a really good book, I recommend it!

3. Book with a male protagonist & book with a female
protagonist

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Percy Jackson Series. As I was doing this I realized most of my books don’t have male leads, slightly more challenging then it should have been. If you haven’t read this series, where have you been for the past 10 years? It’s really amazing, really fun, go find it!

Female protagonist! I got this one in the bag! But let’s go with The Naming by Alison Croggon, I have never heard anyone talk about these books, I have two I believe there are four in total. I read these back when I was in my Lord of the Rings mourning period and I really enjoyed them! It’s an epic fantasy that follows a slave girl, Maerad, as she is broken out of her slavery by a magician, Cadvan. I actually have been meaning to pick this series up again and finish it, I only stopped becasue the third book wasn’t published and I just ended up forgetting about it.

4. Book you read fast & book that took too long to read

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I read the whole Hunger Games Trilogy (by Suzanne Collins) in one night, not ashamed! Who needs sleep when there are books?

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austin. This isn’t a long book! My copy is 275 pages. I was stuck on an island with no TV and no internet and this was the only novel I had left of the ones I brought and it still took me a week! I found this book so boring I kept having the problem of falling asleep while reading it! I keep telling myself that I should re-read it becasue I was pretty young, 12 or so, and I’ll probably enjoy it more now but it’s really hard to force myself to do.

5. Pretty cover & ugly cover

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Entwined by Heather Dixon. I feel like i should frame this and hang it as art because it is so beautiful  I usually tend to prefer simpler cover designs, but this is just too pretty and it matches the story PERFECTLY!

I don’t even own this book but I have to include it, Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi. I have been avoiding buying this book though I have the other two for no reason other than I hope they re-print the hardcover with the new version. Hasn’t happened yet, but I’m waiting! If I hadn’t heard about this book from so many people liking it and saying the cover doesn’t match, there is no way I would have picked it up. I judge book by their covers, so do you, don’t pretend you don’t. When you are out walking though Chapters or Barnes and Noble you don’t pick up books that don’t catch your eye.

6. National book & international book

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The only book I have based in Canada is Anne of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery. If you don’t know this book and you are female I’m not sure what to say to you. There are a bunch of movie and TV movies and TV shows and there’s a musical. Classic young girl literature.

I’m going to go with Greece becasue I was just there, Nobody’s Princess by Esther Friesner, it’s based in ancient Greece and follows Helen of Troy when she was a child. Not a fantastic book, the history and mythology isn’t overly researched, but it’s kinda cute. Little bit of badassery from 10-year-old Helen.

7. Thin book & thick book

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The thinnest book I have is In My Enemies House by Carol Matas clocking in at only 176 pages. This is a WW2 book and it is very intense, I can not read it more than once every couple years becasue even though it is fantastic, it’s very graphic and difficult to read. It’s on par with Elizabeth Wein’s novels in my mind.

Breaking Dawn is my thickest at 756 pages unless we count my Charles Dickens collection which is actually 5 books in one and 1481 pages. I haven’t read any of it. It’s really big and scary. It’s absolutely gorgeous though.

8. non-fiction book & Fiction book

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Thanks to U of C common reading program I own one non-fiction book now. Misfit: A Changemaker with an Edge by Andreas Souvaliotis. I haven’t read it, I probably won’t. I don’t like non-fiction novels. I don’t want to read about this world, that’s what news is for, I want my novels to be an escape.

Fiction, let’s have No Small Thing by Natale Ghent becasue I just read it. This book is based in 1977 and is about these three kids for a recently poor family with a father who walked out on them when they lost their money. And they come into a free pony. It’s a super sweet coming of age story.

9. Overly romantic book & action book

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Anyone who has been following my blog for any amount of time knows my go-to romantic novel but I’m going to shake it up a bit and actually do something different. Halo by Alexandra Adoretto. This novel is about 3 angels who come to earth and the youngest one falls in love with a human boy. This is another book I didn’t realize was a series. It ended perfectly fine after this book and I don’t see the reason for a second so I haven’t read it becasue I’m sure that somehow it will mess up this perfect novel. It’s not all lovey-dovey, there is some conflict with a demon pretending to be human and bringing evil to the town and what-not. I could have gone more romantic but I don’t read many romance specific books. I like my books with romance in them but I don’t own many “romance novels.” I’ve read some, none that come to mind. If you want to leave some suggestions that would be nice actually.I need some fluff to read.

Everlost by Neal Shusterman. I didn’t realize this was a series until I just Goodreads it to find the authors name! Apparently it’s a trilogy. It’s about kids caught in limbo, really interesting. There’s a hint near the end that there might be a romance starting but we never see it develop which was fine by me, the story wasn’t set up for a romance.

10. Book that made you happy & book that made you sad

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Hurt Go Happy by Ginny Rorby. This is a weird one becasue while reading it you wouldn’t immediately think “happy.” It has a lot of sad moment in it and the end is incredibly bitter-sweet. I wish I could explain it better but that would spoil you. It’s so hopeful and optimistic it makes me feel better.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by JK Rowling. ***SPOILERS*** Many will disagree with me becasue this is a touchy subject, but the hardest death for me in this series was Sirius Black. He didn’t need to die, if Harry had just remembered his stupid mirror! He was the best person and he went through so much and just as his life was improving he gets killed.

That is it for this tag! I hope you found some new books you want to pick up!

Summer Wrap-Up!

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Hello darlings! Summer is over and my first official day of university is tomorrow! I’m back from Greece, which was absolutely amazing I saw and did a lot of very, very cool things but it’s nice to be home again.

Books with Book Rants:

  1. The Darkest Minds by Alexandra Bracken ———- 5
  2. The Scorpio Races by Maggie Stiefvater ——– 4.75
  3. Cinder by Marissa Meyer———————- 4.5
  4. Crown of Midnight by Sarah J. Maas ———- 4.5
  5. Never Fade by Alexandra Bracken ———— 4.5
  6. Scarlet by Marissa Meyer ———————— 4.5
  7. The One by Keira Cass —————————– 4
  8. Kissing Shakespeare by Pamela Mingle —————- 4
  9. Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead ——————- 4
  10. Legend by Marie Lu ——————————— 3.75
  11. Lola and the Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins—– 3.5
  12. Me and Earl and the Dying Girl by Jesse Andrews —– 3.5
  13. The Ring and The Crown by Melissa De La Cruz ——- 3
  14. Cruel Beauty by Rosamund Hodge ————— 2.5
  15. Eternity by Elizabeth Miles ————————- 0

Books I read/ re- read, but didn’t talk about:

16. A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray —– 5 (re-read)
17. The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien ———————- 5 (re-read)
18. No Small Thing by Natalie Ghent —————- 5 (re-read)
19. Wicked Lovely by Melissa Marr —————— 5 (re-read)
20. Poison Study by Maria V. Snyder ————- 4.75 (re-read)
21. The Juliet Club by Suzanne Harper ———  4.5 (re-read)
22. Ladies in Waiting by Laura L. Sullivan —— 2.5

I think I did okay considering I was away and not really reading for two weeks! I’ll talk to you guys later! Kisses!

Book Rant: The One

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RATING: 4

GENRE: Dystopian, YA, Romance

SERIES: The Selection, #3

SERIES RATING: B

Hello beauties, I am back! The One is the third and final installment in the Selection Trilogy. This is one of those series that is incredibly frustrating but at the same time really fun and entertaining and you can’t stop reading it. I’m not going to spend too much time here becasue this is the last book, if you want a more detailed explanation of what the series is about I direct you to my The Selection rant HERE and you can catch up with us then come back. Bye if you haven’t read the book! Spoilers past here

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Hey friendship who has read The One. How are you? I hated America considerably less in this book. She could still be infuriating especially with the whole Aspen stupid situation and her indecisiveness on everything and her insane ill-planned actions but it wasn’t nearly as frustrating as in The Elite. He stupidest moment had to be the leaving the castle in the dead of night to meet with August and exchange 10 words. 20 tops. What the hell is wrong with notes? Coded message? Carrier pigeon? Smoke signals, anything but endangering the two people you need alive! Kriss and America’s father being  northern rebels had to be the least shocking thing ever. I’m not entirely sure why it was even necessary to include.  Anyway, America gets shot and we end up in Aspen’s room of all places with all America’s love letters posted all over the walls! Am I the only one finding these shrines to America weird? Maxon has his pictures, Aspen has letters, it just seems weird to me. I don’t think I’d find a wall for pictures of me sweet. I loved when America was talking to her dad and explaining why she liked Maxon and he made her feel like herself, not a number or a project.

We knew even in The Selection that America was going to be Queen so it felt really dragged out at time! All she needs to do is say “Oh, I love you” she has this epiphany halfway through where they are on the roof dancing in the rain of she loves Maxon and doesn’t want to be with anyone else but she doesn’t tell him! America is such a horrible procrastinator! I’ll tell him I love him later, I’ll tell him about Aspen later. As soon as he noted that she was close to Aspen (which was AFTER she decided she was so in love with Maxon and wanted to be the princess) I would have been “oh this is actually something we should clear up now so there is no drama later, he and I were childhood sweethearts, it was over by the time I selected and he left to become a guard.” Nice and simple. 80% honest, leave out the make-out sessions in the castle so you both don’t get killed, leave it at the we broke up before I even knew I was selected.  But no. We get Maxon at the end suddenly acting irrational and very much like America becasue she was standing close to Aspen. They weren’t even doing anything and he just freaks out. He had to get shot to realize he truly loved her and she loved him. These two are the most dysfunctional couple ever.

What I wanted to happen that didn’t really get shown was for the country to start getting fixed. This series truly just was about the selection.  I would have rathered the selection be over half way through the second book and then the rest be world fixing. And more back story would have been nice becasue we don’t really know what happened to dissolve America (Country) and make Illea.

Celeste! We finally like her in this book! She becomes our best ally and redeems herself. We have these two really fantastic moments with all the elite girls, one when they are fooling around and take Maxon’s camera and are taking a bunch of pictures with the Queen and then when they are all sitting in America’s room having a huge heart-to-heart about what they’re done so far, what they’d do different and their futures and all that. Both of those were so great. And then she dies. It was this huge invasion and in all the past ones no one dies or was even that hurt and this one is just a slaughter! The King conveniently dies, as does Anne (becasue can’t have her complicating he Lucy-Aspen relationship *eyeroll*) and the Queen. And the northerners come in to save the day and we skip right to the wedding. Aspen walking America down the aisle seemed odd. A chapter before Maxon had been shouting at America and ready to marry someone else becasue she was standing close to him and he now knows that he’s her ex-fiance. I would have thought her Mom would give her away, but whatever, it was a satisfying ending.

That is all! Bye!